Arising Inquests

Finally feel like writing something after a long interlude :). Life was absolutely adorable,enjoyable and adequate for the last one and a half month. Spent some really mirthful and merry moments with my family. I felt as if I had unfurled the pages of my life tagged " childhood. "Met some long lost friends and relatives. It was like "reliving" my childhood without any worries about the past or the future. I had my parents to take care of my day to day needs and my siblings to have fun with.
I had plenty of time to chat with my family,watch my favourite programmes, eat the food I relish the most, get up late in the morning, no need to worry that I have to get up early tomorrow...
An innervation that everything was well and at the best it can be overwhelmed my heart.
But as life is, nothing is everlasting...
It is time life demands higher responsibilities from me and I "am" ready for them or am I" not"? I "can" handle them or "not"? I "can" fiddle with the newer circumstances or "not"? I "can" survive the rat race or "not"? I "can" live up to my expectations or "not"? These and many more inquests  inflict influence on my mind throughout the day.
A clash between optimism and pessimism echoes the walls of my mind.
But by the end of the day when I close my eyes, and peep into my mind waiting to acclimatize myself with the winner of the duel, I find optimism beaming with victory and bagging the trophy of confidence.
I know I am nervous because it is new, once I befriend the changes that life is bringing to me I will rediscover my alacrity. :)